it just seems like

lately i've been in somewhat of a funk. i've just been feeling kinda down? i've always known that i don't have alot of friends. and i've always liked it that way. but lately i've been feeling like that's a bad thing. that maybe i should've tried a little harder or been a little nicer so that i can make friends. but at the same time....i KNOW how people are. how they can be. and rarely does anything good ever come from it. imo, the more people that know you, the worse off you are. that's how shit gets started. and i've never been one for drama. i've always perferred to mind my own business. because i know how it feels to have someone all up in your business. and i've seriously considered dropping all the friends i have now and just starting over. except i think i'll keep rowan because she's pretty awesome. but most of the friends i have now just don't seem worth all the trouble.